You're Not Thinking About Tomorrow

I always mean to post more and then I get distracted (as usual) and somehow forget. So more thoughts with numbers so that there is some reason in the chaos of things I want to talk about.

1. My mom thinks I should write about the things I learned in high school that have most benefited me in college. I want to but that would need to be another post entirely and I think that is a unique experience because it was more the life lessons I learned both in the classroom and outside during those years that helped most rather than the by the book educational things.

2. We had Vagina Monologues auditions this week which means that the show is coming together. Slowly but surely, it's becoming something more than a really long to do list. The to do list is huge but everything is an exciting prospect. I spent more time in the Women's Center this week then ever before but it is still awesome. One of my friends asked me how I knew so many people as I said hi to what felt like a billion people that I knew from the copious time I spend at the Women's Center. They are genuinely awesome people to spend time with and even being a senior, it's been really nice getting to know new people.

3. Pacing Break has come and gone. It never feels like long enough since it is only two days but at the same time, I was going to take advantage because I would rather have one much longer weekend than two three day weekends. I went to DC to babysit some of the cutest kids I know. Campbell and Reagan are amazing and I know I will never have kids of my own who are as great as the two of them are, young as they are. My mom also came out to babysit with me and then play tourist for a little while and then stayed through the following weekend for Parent's Weekend with my younger sister. Mom and I went to the International Spy Museum. It was AWESOME! And that is saying that as my 21 year old self and not as my six year old inner child. It is not by any means a boring museum nor is it geared towards children since the history of conflicts are needed to understand the importance of the espionage roles.

4. We are over half way finished with the semester (I think, it gets confusing) but this year is already flying by. It feels like each new semester goes faster than the last. Although spring semester drags while we are in it because of the cold. There is still so much to accomplish this semester!

5. This weekend is young alumni which has been fun seeing the people who have graduated relatively recently all come back and return to college for the weekend. While work has put a damper on being able to spend as much time with them as I would like, it's just been nice to see them all.

Okay so I think this is enough of a break from my essay and I should really get back to it. Although it has been good fun reflecting on all of the things that have happened since the last time I sat down and wrote but I am hoping that between this time and the next, there is not such a lag.

I Wanna Jump in the Cold Water

I have not been good about updating this and for that, I apologize but I have had a lot going on and no real time to sit down and write about it. This might also have been the most literal title I have ever used. So, things I have to say about life right now:
1. This weather is insane. It goes from pouring rain to really hot within hours. I don't want it to be fall yet because then it gets too close to the real cold but this heat is a little ridiculous. It's back to be being too hot to sleep! Maybe that's just me though... Also, my room tends to be warmer than the rest of my house and we can't really figure out why.

2. I now live in the Women's Center. I really wish I had discovered it earlier! Today I got to make buttons, like turn them from paper circles into full pins. It's surprisingly awesome despite how lame it sounds. The people who work there (because you don't have to be a woman to work in the Women's Center) are fantastic. They are funny and silly and just great people to be around.

3.I feel like I might be falling behind on Vagina Monologues things but I don't know what I could be doing differently. We got our scripts this week and started pushing people to sign up for auditions and getting forms which is all super exciting. We are really looking for support and ways to get people to donates something! Whether that something is time or items or monetary support, we just know that we have a lot of options to help us fund-raise. Our goal seems reachable but it's still daunting.

4. I love my roommates. Or I guess housemates would be a better term for them since that is what they are. We have been hanging out playing video games, watching TV together (especially crazy wedding shows) and then just getting "stuck" downstairs. By stuck I mean going downstairs on a mission and then taking forever to make it back upstairs because we get distracted by spending time with each other.

5. Classes are going pretty well, they are not that different from other semesters. I don't have one class that I am in love with like I usually do that but I don't know if that is because I am lacking classes that I truly dislike also so on a relative basis, they are all good.

I guess that is all I really have to say tonight. The heat is making me distracted because all I want to do is jump in the shower and then try to get some sleep before I overheat again. Well, for tonight, I shall be going.

A Moment, A Laugh

I actually have time to sit and write something! I know it's been a while since I have written an actual update as to what has been going on but the truth is that there has been a lot. I am co-producing Lehigh's production of The Vagina Monologues this year and while the show might now be until February, there is a lot to be done before we can even work on getting together a cast. Being producer was never something I thought was a possibility but so far, it's been pretty amazing and I know it's going to be even more work than it has been already but it will also get even better as we get more people involved with all the new ideas that my co-producer and I hope to incorporate into our show.

Other things, classes have started. Senioritus exists already but nowhere near as badly as it did in high school. Maybe because I don't have a job yet or maybe because I am more engaged with my classes now than I was in high school. It's going to be a good year academically. The new STEPS building is awesome. I am a little sad that I don't have a class in there. I might have to schedule an elective there just for fun next semester.

It's been really nice being back, seeing people I haven't seen in six months, meeting people from all the organizations that I am rejoining as time has passed. This is shaping up to be a really great semester. Stay tuned for how things shape up to be.

Let's Get Together

Senior year starts tomorrow and to be honest, I am finally psyched. There is a ton to do that is all super exciting and at this point, almost all of my friends are back and it has been amazing seeing all of them as well as meeting a ton of new people. I missed out on recruitment last year so I am catching up on meeting our new pledge class and so far, they seem like a really great group of girls.

My room is still a bit of a disaster zone for now but a light week of class for now should make that a little bit easier to fix, trying to make sure that I can stay focused and not watch "How I Met Your Mother" instead.

And it happened... I got distracted... I got to talk to my roommates (they are seriously awesome) and then started watching more DVDs. So I will leave it with this for now, because to be honest, it's almost midnight and I have senior things to do tomorrow before I really start class but it's kind of an anti-climactic last first day of school. Still, my schedule this semester, is awesome.

It has been a really strange summer so far and it is bound to stay this way. The main reason that this is so weird is that part of me feels like this is not my home anymore. Most of my high school friends are not sticking around as they are paying higher rent than I am and as a result are living in their apartments/houses. I came home thinking I needed a break from being in new places, but now I wonder if I should have just appreciated my summer before the "real world" starts. My life is split between being here, back at school and a little in DC. I am thinking that if I choose to get a job, DC might be the best place for me, specifically, somewhere on the red line would great. It's strange feeling like I have no real place to call home anymore. Is home where my parents are or is it someplace else? School is home in a more general sense because I move from room to room each year.

Part of me is ready for the next year but the uncertainty of what follows scares me. I have no idea what I want to do. Do I want to get a job and push off grad school if I go at all? Do I want to go to grad school for a degree that I probably can't pay off? Do I want a job in the profit world where while I might make more, I may not be as happy? Or, if I get a job I love at a non-profit, can I afford rent?

My sister just graduated from high school, the same one I did and I realized that I will probably never have to set foot on that campus again and it was a bittersweet feeling. There were good times and bad had on that campus but it's no longer meant for me. She's going to start college (not a Lehigh but another great school) and eventually, I think she is going to start feeling what I am about being divided. Last night I told her she scares my friends because they only know about her graduating and remember her as a little kid rather than who she is now. It still scares me that she drives but I know what they mean because I feel the same way about their siblings. Liz then told me I scare her friends for the same reason she scares mine. Scare them? Right..... Try scaring myself. People I graduated high school with are done with college already. I could be done with college already. It's like going to camp on the first day, scary but exciting all at the same time. I miss camp and all that it is as a little bubble.

Well, I am at work and am now going to go finish putting labels on binder tabs.

Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer

First of all, sorry that it has been forever since I last updated this. It's been a hectic couple of weeks. Since I last posted here, I finished my semester at Georgetown and moved back to Lehigh before coming home for the summer.

Since coming home, I was working at my usual camp in the office to pass the time because it was impossible to go from doing a million things at once to not doing anything. After about three weeks of that, I went on a cruise to Alaska and had a really good time. It was probably the most exhausting vacation I have ever been on. I came home and slept for more than 15 hours! I never do that.

So I went back to camp for a week and then yesterday started my internship. I don't really know how it's going to go but everyone has been really nice and I know that I am going to learn a lot.

I really can't wait to get back to Lehigh. There are so many new things going on and I am ready to get started already!

I'm heading out to Philly for my cousin's wedding and am frustrated that I can't get to Lehigh to visit even just for a little while. I am however, enjoying the guacamole made possible by the abundance of good avocados in Southern California.

Join the crowd of aging beards a'many

For some reason, this past semester has caused me to have a lot of discussions about mustaches. I think it's because one of my co-workers is growing one which has led me to pay more attention to the people around me with them and has also led to all the interns looking up pictures of the mustache competition. We have also been led onto events like the mustache growing competition to raise money for charity. I guess I wad finally prompted to discuss this because I just saw a man in the library coffee shop with a beard i just don't understand. I am not a fan of facial hair at all and as a result I have great respect for the wives of these bearded men. I also just don't understand. A well groomed beard or mustache can be fine, but I don't get it when they are not well groomed and just look gross. It is still hair, and like the hair on your head, it should be neat if you want to be taken seriously. There are very few men that need facial hair, some really do or else they look way too young but for the vast majority, it is unnecessary.

So more about this library. It can be really frustrating sometimes because there are so many places to study but there are only a limited number of outlets. It can be very frustrating since most computer batteries don't last very long. I understand that there are certain places that are perceived to be okay for it to talk. That is fine, but the privilege shouldn't be abused. In Linderman, it is okay to talk a little and whisper but no one yells like they do here. The other night, it was so loud, it was impossible to hear myself think and I have a very loud thinking voice. It was probably a good thing that I wasn't doing real work at the time. To actually get some work done, I have to go hide in the lowest level of the library where my phone doesn't work and there are very few outlets. It might be easier to concentrate here but that doesn't mean I get very much done anyway... I am kind of a procrastinator, if we didn't figure this out already.

I'm super excited to see some family next weekend! Actually, all sorts of family, some of whom I haven't seen in a while. Plus, I get to hang out with my favorite two and half year old.